I Rock Like Whoa--Yeah I know you're jealous =P

So I went to Newport Music Hall last night with Alyssa, Sara, and Alyssa's new boyfriend Ben for the 'Before We Forget' special guests weekend. They had 2 stages of music going, one stage after the other with like 15+ bands. We missed Permenant Me play...but we got to hang with Bandcamp almost the entire time we were there. We got there at 6:30 and left at 10:30...Bandcamp went on at about 9:30 or so. Poor Sean was tired and slept leaning against the wall behind their merch table for a little while after we got there. We talked to Matt and Steve for a bit and listened to music on Alyssa and Ben's cell phones...it was amusing. The band that went on before Bandcamp was alright, screamo and the lead singer took off his pants and sang in his boxers. There were a bunch of guys jumping around and pushing each other in the middle of the pit. Then Bandcamp went on, we stood in front of Sean ^^
They played, "Top Of The World", "Rebel", "Someone", "Situation Lose Lose", "One Day", and "Thinking About You"...then they got caught off from their last song. I think they were going to do "Cry My Love Goodbye"...it sucked they got cut-off. I wanted to hear that and "Skeleton's Belts" Alyssa has really wanted "Brightest Dark" forever. I wish we could go to the show in Cincinnati tomorrow...but we don't have a ride :(
I can't wait for their new album though and I'm going to miss them lots. Sara got her neck signed by Steve and Sean. I was going to have them all sign my shoes...but they kept disappearing. And then I guess I was too afraid to get Sean to do it while he was sitting there after signing Sara's neck--I don't know. Oh well. Next time. Next time I'll be more hyper and fun hopefully. Steve made me dance with him a little after they went on and that was fun :) He's so funny.
I'm so tired right now. My mom woke me up at quarter to 4....for their send-off and then I couldn't get back to bed. I had fun today though, got to see Anthony, twice. Slept for a few hours at his house. Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Dave and Becca in the morning, helping out with some things and then getting a free lunch with them :)

So my mom had her surgery today...I of course was a nervous wreck all morning and afternoon. I'll explain...
My mom, stepdad, and aunt all left to go to the hospital at OSU at 5:30am. I woke up at 6:30 and the paranoia began right away. My brothers woke up a little later and came in and bugged me around 8:30-9:00. I immediately started watching Boys And Girls [I love that movie] At like 10:40 I went outside witht he boys to watch them ride their bikes and talked to our neighbor, Sharon, across the street. We went in at like 11:15. I went back to watching Boys & Girls for like the 3rd time I think. I watched it a total of like 6 1/2 times to pass time. I didn't even look at a clock. I finally got a call from my stepdad around 2-2:30 saying my mom was out of surgery and everything went well. So I was relieved. They just didn't get her into a room yet--they had her in the recovery area.
So I went on the computer while my brothers played and watched tv. I made lunch for them around 4...and got a call from my aunt telling me they still didn't have a freakin' room for her. That not as many patients were discharged like they thought would be...and then they had an emergency to take care of. My stepdad and aunt finally came home around 5-5:30. Then at about 6:20 or so the doctor calls up saying my mom FINALLY got a room. And the nurse's say she'll be able to come home tomorrow afternoon most likely. Then at about 7-7:30...my mom calls! She sounded very tired and somewhat weak but she was okay...she was wondering where my stepdad, Bill was since he was supposed to be there to visit her and stay with her. he left after that. Now I'm just chilling..I ate...I'm relaxing...still a bit in paranoid-mode for some reason...and I'm exhausted.
I also won't be able to go anywhere or do anything for about a week 'cause I have to help my aunt Lilly here with my little brothers while my mom is recovering and Bill is working. I can't wait for the Bandcamp concert though. Alyssa wants me over tomorrow night 'cause her mom wants to cook me a late b-day dinner since I only saw them for a little bit on my b-day. And Anthony wants to have a cookout either friday or saturday night. My mom said we'll see how she's doing and maybe I'll be able to go to both and the Bandcamp concert as well ^^ Alyssa, Sarah, and Ryan are going along with me to the concert.

Yay! I'm uber excited to be 17! ^^

Well my Anthony, Dave, and Becca took me [and dave technically...since his b-day was monday the 18th] to Mongolian BBQ and it was AWESOME! As usual. Anthony and I had 3 bowls and they played good music while we were up at the cooking wheel. Dave and Becca had like 1 bowl each. They messed up our first bowls...and Becca threw a fit and the manage went and cooked her next bowl seperately--and she liked it. The rest of the bowls turned out delicious. They made Becca's bowl free  and gave us the best dessert they had on the menu for free--which was like a 4 person frickin' dessert in a giant cool-looking glass goblet. I don't know how anyone could finish that by themselves if they actually ate Mongolian too lol. It was vanilla ice cream with a giant brownie in it and caramel and fudge dribbled all over it. It was the best! Anthony ended up paying for me...since on his b-day I paid for him :) I love him.
Then we went back to Anthony's house and lounged around, digesting for awhile. Then we beat Super Mario World [I got to beat Bowser! Yay!] And that was about it. It was just a great day and a great 17th b-day ^^

Ryan still owes me Waffle House and 5 bucks from monday night though :-P

So yeah GET THIS! My mom finally decided I can date Anthony! WHOOOO!!!!! hehe...so yeah I'm with my Lover Boy officially now :) Yay!
Umm...college is going to be a bitch once I get to OSU...they're scheduling sucks apparently and they're more unorganized than Columbus State--luckily I'll be going to CSCC next winter and NOT OSU just yet :-P
Yeah I was at OSU for 6 hours for orientation with Anthony since he just transferred there from CSCC for Autumn quarter...though he may be going there for summer quarter instead--starting this monday the 18th--the day before my 17th b-day! [17th b-day whoot! :-P ]
Umm...hooray for engineers!? Even if I get the GEC's all done within the first 2 years of going to college [at CSCC] I'll still most likely be in college for another 2-3 years once I transfer to OSU unless I somehow cram classes in and not work and not take vacations and whatnot [bye bye life lol] But they most likely won't even let me take more than 6-9 credit hour courses per quarter...which sucks...that's what they're trying to do to Anthony right now. So he may be waiting to go to OSU until fall quarter anyway and just taking a class or two at CSCC for the summer. We'll hopefully know tomorrow.
And that's about it...summer seems so unorganized and rather bothersome so far. I kinda wish it was over already.

So the Bandcamp show saturday night at The Basment was awesome! St3ve changed his hair! It's not straighht and jet black and longer on one side than the other...and I think I bit shorter than it was before--it's frickin' sweet as hell! Anthony went with me and Alys. I finally got him to go to a concert! Whoot! And he enjoyed it lots so he might be going to the next Bandcamp show on June 30th at Newport Music hall! Whoo!!! ^^
But yeah, St3ve threw the cup he was drinking out of off stage to Alyssa--she kept it hahaha...shoved it in my skull bag :-P Poor Sean was tired...and Kris was playing Billyat pool when we first got there. My little brothers were very excited that the guys signed a poster I got for them--they can't wait to see 'em...they have to do a Best Buy show so my brothers can go.
I also hope they play "Brightest Dark", "Cammans", "Celebrity", "The Perfect Song", "Natalie Crush", etc etc...hehe...yeah I love all of their songs...can't wait to hear what's on their next album :)

Although things took a turn for the worst on Sunday...we had to put Alyssa's [And mine pretty much] 9 year old ferret, Meeko to sleep....I helped pick her out and name her when she was a baby....it was really sad...it sucked. And then I also missed my friend Becca's graduation party at the Y...I was angry 'cause I really wanted to go to that and swim and hangout with my friends and shit. But she failed to tell me [or Anthony] when exactly the damn thing was and Anthony ended up calling me at like 6:40...telling me that Laura had just called him asking him where he was 'cause the party started at 6...I was stuck babyshitting my little brothers overnight with Alyssa...my mom took my stepdad out 'cause his b-day was saturday the 26th [same day as the show]. So I missed the swimming...and Rocky Horror Picture Show...and Becca screaming at the Y and quitting as she stormed out. Apparently they were supposed to have the pool until 9...and they kicked them out at 8--all 130 guests...

Oh well. I still got to see Anthony yesterday and today and watched Grey's Anatomy and apply at some places for a job and pass both of the exams I had today ^^

It's not finished...I just pieced it together one day in class sometime near the end of the week last week I think. It's supposed to mirror the last one I wrote--well clash or whatever...it's basically got the opposite feeling and attitude :)
It doesn't really have a title yet either...I'll revise it as more comes to mind

The clock tics
Seconds go by
We always find
There's never enough time
To be here with you
Right here with you
Is where I want to be
In your arms always
Everyday,
I miss you when I'm gone
The reason I leave,
I'll never see
Why I leave

And I'll freeze time
To be with you
To lay here in your arms
I'll break the clock,
Make time stop
To stay with you always, forever
But time's a let-down

Just lyrics I wrote the other day 'cause I've been really apathetic lately...due to some second-hand, off-brand shit medication I've been on...and I can't help the loss of emotion and motivation. It randomly comes and goes and lately it's been rough and coming more often and staying longer and affecting my sleep drastically. And it's been upsetting and frustrating some people--you know who you are and I'm sorry...this is for you in a way...
I do hope this can one day be an acoustic song maybe...though I can't play guitar at all :-P

Say No More

Here tonight
On the floor with thoughts in mind
Staring up at the ceiling
Wondering what is wrong with me
And you're at home
Sitting there all alone
Can't figure out what is wrong
You think it's you but it's not

Say no more
I know you love me
Don't walk out the door
Don't give up on me
I'm still here
Searching for some answers

Say no more
I know you still love me
Don't walk out the door
I'm still searching for me
Say no more
But know I do love you
I love you
I love you

It's been rough
I know that you have had enough
Please don't worry
I'll find a way
To make it all better soon
Still you try
Anything to help me
You miss my smile
But it's just hiding
It's so sweet of you
The things you do
But it's okay, I'll fix myself

Say no more
I know that you're worried
Don't walk out the door
I know you care about me
I'll be okay someday soon

Say no more
Don't worry about me
Don't walk out the door
I know you still love me
Say no more
But know I do love you
I love you
I love you

-Solo-

Say no more
I love you

That's right--now you can 'Demand' for events to take place in YOUR town on Eventful.com! I took the liberty of creating a demand for Bandcamp so anyone can demand 'em in their town and they can be notified of who wants 'em, where, when, and how many people!
Here's the link for these awesome boys!

http://eventful.com/demand/D0-001-000193348-5

Okay so I spent thursday-sunday with Anthony...and Dave and Becca were with us most of the time as well. We all went to the Waffle House on friday for a late lunch/early dinner...we went to one out in BFE--tractor country lol. But it was great compared to the one on roberts like 8 minutes away.
Sunday, before I hungout with Anthony, my mom and I went to Tuttle mall. I got my ear pierced again [3rd peircing on one ear in the cartilage near the top of my ear-- I'm done now. I have 3 on one ear and two on the other]. Suprisingly enough, this one doesn't really hurt at all. I had it peirced just below where it is now about 4-5 years ago and they tell you that you can change the earring after 6 months...and so I did and the one I used fell out while I was sleeping and closed up overnight. I was pissed. That's NOT supposed to happen that quickly...but oh well. I got over it. And I didn't want to pop the earring back in since my ear was just starting to feel better. So you can imagine my surprise and delight with this piercing...no constant throbbing, no sharp pain when you turn it or poke at it or clean it. I can even lay on it and shit. Fun fun ^^
Oh I also got a dress for the special dinner thing Anthony and I have been wanting to do for nearly 3 years now--though now it's turned into him taking me out, no complaints here :) I got some high-heel shoes..though the heels aren't that tall at all and are the inch wide ones so I won't fall and have it turn into Miss Congeniality all over again lol. I got some more earrings as well from hot topic....and a pair of earrings with a matching necklace for the dress. I'll also be wearing the dress, shoes, and jewelry for my cousin's wedding August 4th--assuming I'm able to make it out to NY after all. I hope so.
My mom got some disturbing news that may put a hitch in some of my summer plans...But due to the circumstances, I can't blame her or really be mad at her for it.
That's about it other than I can't wait for the Bandcamp concert here on May 26th. That's also the same day as my stepdad's b-day...And I'm singing again in Gallery X--this time called gallery Y...the staff sent me a personal invite saying they wanted me to be in it again at the beginning of May. Whoot...ugh I have a bad headache...lol...
Well that's all folks.

So it's been awhile since I've posted anything, I know. After Long Island things took a turn for the worst for about a week or so...I'm not getting into that though it's personal.But things have been looking way up since then. I've got love in my life...in more ways than one ^^
For easter me and my little brothers got a baby bunny! She's adorable and sweet and mellow as hell. She doesn't bite and just chills in your arms when you hold her and hops around sniffing curiously at everything and nibbling things she finds interesting--but never people's skin...she licks on occasion and nibbles on socks and rugs. She also stands up some to have a better look at bigger objects :-P [I have pics of her up so check 'em out!] My youngest brother wouldn't stand for any other name aside from Carrot...my other little brother liked Hershey...my mom said Hershey Carrot....I call her Baby, Bunny, or my Baby Bunny..so she's got like 6 names lol--she's loved lots :D
I also got some candy and a few movies as well--Never Been Kissed, Sweet Home Alabama, and The Ron Clark Story...oh and The Bachelor is my mom's I guess lol. I've finally seen Guardian too, great movie!
All in all things are going great now.  I've got my Baby Bunny, a Bandcamp show here in Columbus I'm looking forward to at the end of May--the 26th to be precise, and a 17th B-day plus summer coming up rather quickly ^^ WHOOT! <333
That's about it...Ryan and I might be doing Gallery X again in May...and there's a bunch of other awesome stuff coming up in May and June :)
later all!

Ok so we left March 17th, saturday morning at 10:15. We meaning Alyssa, her dad Jim, and myself. Jim needed to go to LI for work so he rented a nice 2007 jeep-like truck--that his job paid for as well as all the gas he had to put in it for the entire trip. The ride wasn't all that bad...though my portable dvd player decided to crap out 20 minutes into The Dukes of Hazzard. Oh well. We enjoyed talking and listening to some great rock 'n' roll and stuff. There were a lot of trees...and cows...and open land...and some more cows...and trees and road signs. But there was no traffic. We flew the entire way. Me and alys slept a total of 2 hours through the trip. And we shrieked in joy when we saw the Throgs Neck Bridge to Long Island sign :-P We were excited. Alyssa had been on Long Island just after christmas...and moved out here from Long Island in July. I hadn't been back to Long Island since the spring break after I moved out here in August of '04.
We made it to my dad's at about 7:45pm...not bad for an estimated 10, 10 and a half hour trip...9 and a half hours baby--whoo!!! haha.  With only 2 stops...one of them being the Waffle House in PA just 15 minutes from Jersey. So even with that we made great time. We got there and my aunt Kelly, uncle Joe, and two little cousins Brianna and Ryan were there..my little cousin Brianna who's now 9--considers me one of her heroes. She had no idea I was coming. So we got there and walked in the door to be greeted by my dad and my dog whom of which was barking at Jim. Then Bri came in from the living room and she didn't recognize me at first--when I left my hair was cut really short and now it's just below my shoulders and curly. My dog didn't recognize us at first either. Then Bri's face lit up and her jaw dropped in shock and she launched herself at me and just as soon as that happened, my dog Lacey realized it was us and went nuts. And my aunt and uncle were a bit taken back when they saw me and of course my dad was and my stepmom Kim...they were all thrilled and extremely happy to see me after all the time that passed. So that was awesome.
Sunday we went to my cousin Jen and her husband of almost 2 years' apartment...she's pregnant for the first time and her expected due date is June 18th--the day before my b-day ^^ Her brother, my cousin Vincent also came..he's engaged but his fiancee was sick and couldn't make it. I haven't even met her yet and the wedding is August 4th. My grandparents were there too--they were estatic. We were over there for a late St Pattie's Day cornbeef and cabbage dinner...it was good to see them. Oh and Jim stayed with alyssa's uncle John all week for work and stuff. We rented some movies from Blockbuster on our way home too so we watched The Covenant that night....and Babel.
Monday both my dad and kim had to work so Alys and I spent the day with Lacey and walked up to CVS and bought some food and stuff for ourselves. It was a rather uneventful day all in all.
Tuesday my dad took off of work so we hungout with him. Alys and I walked up to my old elementary school to visit my fifth grade teacher Mr. Simpson since I still keep in touch with him via e-mail...he's now a 2nd grade teacher there. We watched Man Of The Year that evening too. We also visited my next door neighbors...they're doing okay.
Wednesday we woke up at 7:30 and got ready 'cause Kim was taking us to work with her--my grandpa was meeting us there and we spent the day at my grandparents house while my dad and Kim worked. Lets see...we ate an awesome breakfast there, watched The Phantom Of The Opera, X-Men...then went to Gene's house to see my cat Neeko...aka Nino as she refers to him. My dad couldn't keep him anymore--he was too much of a pain and they're not home enough to keep him happy. Lacey came with us to my grandparents'. We started watching X-Men 2 but decided to take Lacey on a 10-block walk to my aunt Karen and Uncle Guy's house...my Uncle Tod lives in the upstairs apartment of the house. They were surprised to see us :-) Then we came back just in time for dinner, had a great dinner, and my dad caem over from work to eat and whatnot. Then we finished X-2 and went home to see Kim and hangout.
Thursday Kim took off of work to hangout with us so we spent time with her and then went to the mall for a little while. We got matching pirate skull belts, new gages for our ears, socks, oh and we got paid 4 bucks each to taste test 2 new tropical mike and ike flavors. After that Kim picked us up and we met up with my aunt Kelly and met Brianna and Ryan at their bus stop with Lacey. They were happy and we spent the evening there...meeting Bri's new guinnea pig Princess, playing some X-box racing games, and watching High School Musical. Then we went home, met up with my dad, and Kim made an awesome dinner.
Friday...umm Kim and Dad worked so me and alys spent the better part of the day just hanging out. Jim got out of work early--like 2:50 and took us out to a late lunch. Then he took us to see some old friends...we only got to see Ashley. Then he took us along with him back to work to pick up an external harddrive he bought off of one of the other employees, one of his friends. The guy was transferring some programs and a ton of music to the drive for Jim...and we were only supposed to be there for 20 minutes....that ended up being like 2, 2 and a half hours...due to some complications and slow transfer speeds and whatnot...ugh. We got back and my dad and Kim were already home. Dad ended up picking up KFC and Jim took us to Blockbuster again to rent some more movies...we got Into The Blue, I'll Sleep When I'm Dead, and White Chicks haha. Kim had already eaten...so that was a fun night. We watched House that night and saved the movies for saturday.
Saturday we watched Into The Blue...then Jim picked up Alyssa and took her to her friends Natalie's to retrieve her cellphone which she had left there when she visited just after x-mas. I took Lacey for a walk while they were gone..and started watching I'll Sleep When I'm Dead but couldn't finish it. Kim cleaned the house and whatnot. They were having a little get together party thing for me for family to come see me that hadn't already. My Aunt Felicia, Uncle Billy, and baby cousin Christina came at 4pm...just on time. My uncle Joe came with the kids a little while later and then my Uncle Tod came. Aunt Kelly came later after we had ordered some pizzas and Alyssa and Jim had finally come back. It was fun...New Yrk pizza's the best :-)
Around 6:30 Alys and I walked up to our old friend Kevin's house...he was uber surprised and happy to see us. He got ready then we walked back to the house, it was drizzling then. But Uncle Tod and Kim were sitting around the fire pit in the backyard with a fire going anyway. Gunky Dot aka Uncle Tod is the best when it comes to fires and the outdoors and tons os useless yet humorous and entertaining knowledge and stories.Kim's family is huge on camping...I miss it. Our annual camping/rafting trip...I've missed the last 2...but we may make it this year...they've moved the trip to the second week in June instead of Memorial Day weekend.  They also changed the location...somewhere else along the delaware river...there's cabins where they're going this time instead of pitching tents...we've dealt with rain and such. They've done this trip every year for 14 years. But anyway we hungout with everyone and had a ton of fun and watched some of The Exorcist. Then we had to go...we were all packed up and Jim wanted to get to Uncle John's...we stayed over there that night to make it easier to get up and get on the road early sunday morning. I was sad...having to leave everyone and whatnot...I talked to Anthony twice on the trip...I missed him lots. I talked to my mom and little brothers once. And my aunt Lenore since she and my uncle mike were supposed to come to visit from Theills, upstate NY but couldn't make it.
We got on the road by 8am sunday...we wanted to get on the road by 7 but that wasn't happening as Jim didn't want to get up in the morning haha.
The trip home was ok...long and sad...but my dvd player lasted through Inside Man...and the trip took about 9 and a half hours again...no traffic. I was home by 5:15 or so...then alys and Jim went home. Jim got pulled over 25 minutes into the trip home on the LIE...doing 83...dummy...it's a frickin' 55 zone and suffolk county cops love to clock people all over the LIE...so that took off 12 minutes of the trip...and we stopped 3 times..none of which to eat really..just bathroom breaks and gas.
So that was my trip...I loved it and enjoyed it thoroughly and I miss NY lots and everyone there. I can't wait to go back. I smiled on our way at the exit 40 Seaford sign...the boys of Bandcamp know why. Too bad they weren't there while I was finally on Long Island. But they're having fun on their cross-country tour. I'm happy for them :-)

Hey everyone, sorry I haven't posted anything in awhile...I'm on Long Island on my spring break--back for the first time in nearly 2 and a half years. It's going great though. I've gotten to see a lot of people and family and do everything I've wanted to do when I wanted to do it. I've crammed a lot in this week. The island hasn't changed much at all...though a lot has happened with the people I know since I've been gone. I need to come back more often--I think I'm coming back for my cousin's wedding on august 4th so that'll be fun. I miss all my friends, pets, and family back in oHIo. We'll be going home sunday morning. But I've gotta go..I'm posting from alyssa's dad's job...haha we're bored. Later all! I'll explain the trip in full detail when I get home!

Lets see...mom let me stay home from school today. It was the last day before spring break and last day of the quarter...so I just didn't feel like going--which is weird 'cause I never mind going to school, usually it's fun-ish. But whatever...I haven't missed much at all. I've only been sick once this year and I have good grades so yeah whatever =)
I actually slept more than 4 hours for once. My cat hasn't woken me up nearly as much since I got her that box she can use to get herself up onto my bed =D
Yeah, I went to bed at 1 and woke up at 5--checked some things on the computer then actually went back to sleep and woke up at like 9...stayed in bed until 9:23. Then I watched some Grey's Anatomy and hungout with my cat.
After that I showered and vacuumed the house and did some dishes...then finished packing altogether. Then when my mom got home I finished up some things and hungout with her...which I don't do all that often because I'm always busy...or we argue so I just avoid it altogether. But it was good, no fighting. We talked, she made breakfast for dinner, I played Guess Who? and Bingo with my little brothers--which I never really play with them 'cause they drive me nuts but it was good, fun. Then we all ate and I watched some tv with my brothers and then my mom.
Mom dropped me off at Alyssa's at about 7:30...and we've been just chilling and talking and having fun playing with the dogs and ferret and watching tv and listening to music...and being all excited about the trip tomorrow =P
That's about it--we leave for Long Island, NY at about 9am and we can't wait! =D

Yeah today was just another typical day at school. We got to use portable jigsaws in Advanced Theatre Design & Production...umm we took a quiz in Spanish and Geometry--fun... We did a rather amusing activity in Psychology dealing with Paulov's Conditioning Theory. We watched the end of Macbeth in Brit Lit--well I didn't. I drew instead...on my jeans lol
I wrote BANDCAMP <3 only the heart was all filled in and the 'N' was backwards like it is for their logo and I drew the logo as well. Yeah I do things like that when I'm bored in class and my writing muse has escaped me =P
Hmm....I hungout with Anthony after school. I'm not going to be seeing him for like 2 weeks... That makes me sad, I'm going to miss him...=(  Though I'll be sure to call and talk to him and get online here and there.


The songs I had in mind today were [I'm not going to type out the lyrics right now 'cause I'm lazy and tired haha]:
"Cammans" "The Fonzie Movement" "One Day" & "Brightest Dark" - all by Bandcamp
"Dirty Little Secret" - The All-American Rejects
"Speakers Blown" - Hit The Lights


And here's something that I wrote a little while ago...

"Conquer The World"

So yeah I'm trying to update this thing daily...since I don't keep up with my other blog sites--they annoy me somewhat from time to time.
And well nothing really interesting or exciting has happened today...so...
I've decided to put up some lyrics to some of my favorite songs that I listened to today

"Situation Lose Lose" - Bandcamp

Tricks are for kids
I'm a kid at heart
So watch your back I'm a stabber
I'm a traitor from the start
I take the side of the winner
I'm a ditcher for the quitter
I'm a sucker for the glitter
A beginner of the art

I won't be here when you try to call
I'll be missing through the tough and all
I won't be here when you start to fall
You'll fall

Save me
I'm letting go
Save me
I'll never know
It's when you shake me
Make me
Throw me around
It's the sound of being gone
That's taking me down
Choose the things you choose
Things are getting rough
And it's a situation lose lose

You can't recover when you're traumatized
An inerasable defect
Reflecting in your eyes
You take the bad with then good
Then the good in with the bad
When you finally are done with me
You obviously have

All the reasons
And some more to go
You'll beg begging
Struggling to know
I won't be here when you start to fall
You'll fall

Save me
I'm letting go
Save me
I'll never know
It's when you shake me
Make me
Throw me around
It's the sound of being gone
That's taking me down
Choose the things you choose
Situation lose

-Solo-

Knew it would happen
In the matter of a minute
I would go from the observer
To the one who's really in it
I'm backing it up
Have my back against the wall
I need a friend
I need a lover
Need a someone I can call
You think that you're covered
When you're underneath the covers
And nobody will discover
There's another or an other
You're keeping it real
'Til the second when you feel
That you appeal
It's surreal and it's ideal
When you reveal that

Save me
I'm letting go
Save me
I'll never know
It's when you shake me
Make me
Throw me around
It's the sound of being gone
That's taking me down
Choose the things you choose
And it's a situation lose

Come on and save me
From letting go
Come on and save me
I'll never know
It's when you shake me
Make me
Throw me around
It's the sound of being gone
That's taking me down
Choose the things you choose
Things are getting rough
And it's a situation lose lose

&

"Thinking About You" - Bandcamp

He's a mystery
A mark in history
A superhero and a zero
A premier
Oh he's so painfully a frill
An emotional standstill
You, you're a thunderstorm
A flash, a roll, the norm
You're a critic
Hypocritical, a cynic
And he's falling oh so hard
Guess you caught him off his guard

And you know well
What you said to shake him
In your hands
You can make or break him

He's thinking 'bout you
Still thinking 'bout you
Still seeing the clothes you would wear
And you twirling your hair
And your stare
He's still thinking 'bout you
Still thinking about you
He's still wondering where you would go
And if he'd ever know
If you knew
That he's still thinking of you

He's the kind of guy
To come off as a shy
Sorta geek, a little sleek
And his mystique
It's something that he can't explain
He doesn't bother to complain
But you, you're incredible
So undependable
You thought you'd take him for a ride and ditch
But now you are surprised to see his face
Though you tried to keep your space
You're all he has

And you know you shook him
In your hands, in your grip
You took him

He's thinking 'bout you
Still thinking 'bout you
Still seeing the clothes you would wear
And you twirling your hair
And your stare
He's still thinking 'bout you
He's still thinking about you
He's still wondering where you would go
And he if he'd ever know
If you knew
That he's still thinking of you

You took a chance
You took a dive into cheap romance
You, you took a shot
You gave it up
And he shocked, knocked, rocked
Rocked!
Oh

He's still thinking 'bout you
Still thinking 'bout you
Still seeing the clothes you would wear
And you twirling your hair
And your stare
He's still thinking 'bout you
He's still thinking about you
He's still wondering where you would go
And if he'd ever know
If you knew
Well if you knew
Well if you knew
He's still thinking about you

Well if you knew
He's still thinking about you
Well if you knew
He's still thinking about you...

&

"Body Bag" - Hit The Lights

You're gonna need a body bag
I'll break bones you didn't know you had
When I'm done
There will be nothing left of you
For your friends to hold onto
When they find you cold and blue tonight
Face down in a parking lot

Next time around
Think about what you say
Before you run your mouth
'Cause you're all alone
And you're nothing without your friends now
You can tell the pavement what you really said
But I already know
You've got another thing coming
If you think you're walking home
This time I'm waiting here for you
You've got nowhere to hide

You're gonna need a body bag
I'll break bones you didn't know you had
When I'm done
There will be nothing left of you
For your friends to hold onto
When they find you cold and blue tonight
Face down in a parking lot

Here's a question,
What do you do when you're all alone
And you've got nowhere to run to, swear I'll find you
And this is what I'll do
I'll take it slow
Just to let you know that
We're not playing
You're not walking home
This time I'm waiting here for you
You've got nowhere to hide

You're gonna need a body bag
I'll break bones you didn't know you had
When I'm done
There will be nothing left of you
For your friends to hold onto
When they find you cold and blue tonight
Face down in a parking lot

Did you think that you had something to prove
Well you do yeah, you do yeah
Did you think that you had nothing to lose
Well you do so you think you're walking

Home this time
I'm waiting here for you
You've got nowhere to hide

You're gonna need a body bag
I'll break bones you didn't know you had
When I'm done
There will be nothing left of you
For your friends to hold onto
When they find you cold and blue tonight

[Next time around
Think about what you say
Before you run your mouth
'Cause you're all alone
And you're nothing without your friends now]

You're gonna need a body bag
I'll break bones you didn't know you had
When I'm done
There will be nothing left of you
For your friends to hold onto
When they find you cold and blue tonight
Face down in a parking lot

YAY! I DON'T HAVE A 'D' IN CHEMISTRY AFTERALL!!!!!!! I have a 'C'...which is the same grade I've gotten in it  ALL YEAR! Well at least with that my GPA should still be a 3.0 or above =)
But yeah today was interesting. The monitor of the main computer in my house died...which that computer happens to be the ONLY one in this house with a printer -_- So I got screwed out of being able to print the Chem. notes for class today. I was pissed. Luckily my Spanish teacher let me use one of the class computers to print them out at the beginning of 1rst period--whoot! We got to screw thing in Advanced Theatre Production and Design today LOL. Yeah we took screwguns and drove screws into some 2 by 4's. Fun, fun. Of course I already know how to work most of the tech tools...since I was on the Tech Crew for last year's musical--that was a blast. Sadly I was unable to work on any of the shows this year...due to my stepdad...
But I did get to sing in the opening band of my school's Variety Show...back toward the beginning of the year. That was fun. We did "Smells Like Tenn Spirit" by Nirvana. The show ran 3 times.
CJ is giving me a bunch of computer stuff--a new monitor for our main crappy computer, a tower from one of his 'old' computers, and a 6 gig hard drive. I'm going to basically clean out the tower aside from the things I want in it...and transfer what I plan to keep from my current computer-from-hell to it. Then hopefully this hell machine will work a bit better...maybe even last until I get my new computer in '08. One can only hope though =P
Brit Lit was okay. It was incredibly HOT in that room though. I mean it's like 80 degrees or pretty damn close to that out, I'm in a tanktop! I love warmth ^^ But it's supposed to drop down to frickin' 30 and snow later in the week! >.< GAH! WINTER GO AWAY ALREADY!
Yeah I drew in that class, we're watching Macbeth--which I've already seen and we just read the play. My teacher said we didn't have to watch it...all she said was just don't talk or sleep but you can do whatever else you want. So I drew some pictures--some punk dude who tagged a wall, umm Jack Skellington, and Bandcamp's logo along with 'Bandcamp Rocks' in cool bubble letters along with the guys' names and what they play around it. That brought me pretty much to the end of the period. Then we made Anti-drug posters in Psychology...mine's great. The slogan I came up with was: "Don't Be A FOOL! DRUGS Aren't COOL!" lol and then I put a bunch of magazine cut-outs of different things along with a phrase beside them...like a picture of some abstract people in the clouds and a funky monster made of water and beside it I put "You will hallucinate" and then there was a picture of some angry dude and then a guy covered in blood, eating his arm and some other dead guy and put "You will experience symptoms of agression and withdrawal" and then a picture of a lion and put "You may do something dumb like get eaten by a lion" lol and lastly a picture of some goth chick who ODed in a bathtub and put "You Will DIE!" So yeah the overall message was Don't do drugs =D Fun.
And that was my day in school today. Geometry wasn't special...Study Hall I talked to my friend the entire time...and Chemistry was just...well Chemistry--kinda boring. But I had the notes so I didn't have to write everything down. I'm also getting another hard drive and 25 bucks from a friend of mine. He's going to get and drop off everything I need thursday. And hopefully I can get Anthony to help me rebuild my computer. I need to transfer everything I want to keep to my 2 gig flash drive. And I need to pack...leaving for NY saturday morning at 9! WHOOO!!!
Catch you all later--and rock on!

Well here it is. My first buzznet journal entry...yay, whoot, hoorah, and all that jazz 'n' stuff. Ha.
Well I believe I've been ditched today by two of my friends--because I was SUPPOSED to go hangout with someone today--but 'who' depended on who it is I got a hold of first...but I got NO ONE, zip, nada, ziltch, nobody!
So I'm stuck in my room with nothing to do--if I leave it I risk being yelled at for no reason by my psycho mom. She's on the warpath and won't tell me why--she just chews me out randomly for something.
Oh, I did see 300 yesterday with some of my friends. It was good. Not all that accurate but the effects in it were awesome.
And I'm so excited. I'm going to Long Island for Spring Break to visit family for the first time since I moved out here in August of '04. Whoot! I decided to turn over a new leaf and let bygones be bygones and start new with them--all shiny-happy-like lol. That's me...bright and shiny Danielle =) THE LEAF HAS BEEN TURNED!
Yeah I'm REALLY hyper right now, I'm going insane! O_O
I also went to a First Of Forver show at Newport Music Hall friday--the 9th with my sister Alyssa. They're cool, we saw them with Bandcamp at High Five back in february on the 3rd. BANDCAMP ROCKS LIKE WHOA! I'M LISTENING TO THEIR 'WANNA DANCE?" CD RIGHT NOW!!! WHOO!!!
I need to calm down before I hurt myself...spin around in my computer chair until it stops short and I fly out of it lol...don't ask how I know that'll happen. Ok, I've done it before =P
Ok yeah, I'm done now.